Poetry | Issue 1 (April 2023)
Self-Eating
Gretchen Filart
my body made milk
poured it into my kid’s mouth
along with my best intentions
strong teeth, antibodies
only liquid gold
for six years
not knowing I was
transferring nonbiodegradables
give her the bottle
and she’d collect 1.5 million
PVC particles
instead
after milk I give
her shrimp and fish
polymer feeders, all three
at the beach she swallows
seawater, in between dips
I watch her
breathe plastics in air
drink pure water that isn’t
actually pure
draw and devour
moon-shaped chips
from a blue plastic packet
every day I realize she
might as well be eating
herself
Gretchen Filart is a writer from the Philippines, where she weaves poems and essays about motherhood, love, healing, nature, and intersectionalities. A Best of the Net nominee and finalist in Phoebe’s 2023 Spring Poetry Contest, her work shares space in Rappler, Defunkt, Door Is A Jar, Barely South Review, and others. Connect with her on Twitter, Instagram, and Bluesky @gretchenfilart, or via her website, www.ourworldinwords.com. She’s usually friendly.